Ah fuck "And I felt this dark ink creeping through my veins and I felt my chest getting heavy" and the adrenaline vs anaesthesia is also an accurate description of how it feels to live in Malaysia nowadays. Hell World knows no borders.
Truly the best description of how I feel is "an IV of adrenaline in one arm and an IV of anesthesia in the other". I am disgusted on so many levels, one being that I was so naive for so long. I knew it was bad, I knew every story involving a black person and a cop, in a stopped car or arrest was horrible, but I did not really understand what has been happening in this country- for 4 centuries! It was out of my little bubble of experience, so I just didn't get it. Now I do, and I think all intelligent people of this country get it, too. Unfortunately, we have a lot of really dumb, evil folks running free. Keep it up, people, keep fighting! It's long past due. Thanks, Luke. Take care.
Hey Luke, is there a public link for this story? I think it's an important one b/c I'm seeing a LOT of people on my FB posting the feel-good cop pics and I'd like to share it. If not I understand but that'd be great if there were something free I could share.
Please do! Its a bit hypocritical of me to ask, as this piece coupled with what is going on right now caused me to finally become a paying subscriber. However, like the person above, I'm seeing a lot of friends and family posting those feel good cop pics, buying into the outside agitator narrative, or endlessly praising the most recent bland meaningless speech from some politician who is doing nothing to stop this at best, and all too often making things worse. I have also been having issues with self care recently. Trouble falling asleep without drinking, smoking way more weed, avoiding work, etc. It has been an effort to keep from lashing out. I have spent hours in the past talking to complete assholes while tabling and canvassing for Bernie and other causes with the DSA, but when my parents call to tell me how hopeful they are for this country after watching Obama's speech, I just want to scream. It feels like I am living in a different world. They get the one where democrats are tireless self sacrificing heroes, where billionaires like Bezos are generous benefactors, where the US was a shining city on a hill, and would be still if not for Trump. Anyway. I just want to send them this piece instead of yelling at them.
A thought experiment...an all white neighborhood, not necessarily rich, was cut off by some natural disaster or some other failure, no water, no food, and they went into a local closed grocery store to get food, etc.....looting?
As always, thank you for putting words to things and distilling the various threads on twitter into a coherent narrative of the weekend's events. This is a minor takeaway, but I have also been a complete shithead to everyone in my life the past few days, even though I know they are just as frustrated and scared and furious and broken-down and hopeless as I am. It's the impotence. There is so much to feel and so fucking little to do. Love to know why my instinct is always to push away instead of to ask for help. Carry on, brother.
Ah fuck "And I felt this dark ink creeping through my veins and I felt my chest getting heavy" and the adrenaline vs anaesthesia is also an accurate description of how it feels to live in Malaysia nowadays. Hell World knows no borders.
Truly the best description of how I feel is "an IV of adrenaline in one arm and an IV of anesthesia in the other". I am disgusted on so many levels, one being that I was so naive for so long. I knew it was bad, I knew every story involving a black person and a cop, in a stopped car or arrest was horrible, but I did not really understand what has been happening in this country- for 4 centuries! It was out of my little bubble of experience, so I just didn't get it. Now I do, and I think all intelligent people of this country get it, too. Unfortunately, we have a lot of really dumb, evil folks running free. Keep it up, people, keep fighting! It's long past due. Thanks, Luke. Take care.
Hey Luke, is there a public link for this story? I think it's an important one b/c I'm seeing a LOT of people on my FB posting the feel-good cop pics and I'd like to share it. If not I understand but that'd be great if there were something free I could share.
ok i'll make it free for a day or two
trying to figure out whether to make it public or not. maybe i should hmmm.
Please do! Its a bit hypocritical of me to ask, as this piece coupled with what is going on right now caused me to finally become a paying subscriber. However, like the person above, I'm seeing a lot of friends and family posting those feel good cop pics, buying into the outside agitator narrative, or endlessly praising the most recent bland meaningless speech from some politician who is doing nothing to stop this at best, and all too often making things worse. I have also been having issues with self care recently. Trouble falling asleep without drinking, smoking way more weed, avoiding work, etc. It has been an effort to keep from lashing out. I have spent hours in the past talking to complete assholes while tabling and canvassing for Bernie and other causes with the DSA, but when my parents call to tell me how hopeful they are for this country after watching Obama's speech, I just want to scream. It feels like I am living in a different world. They get the one where democrats are tireless self sacrificing heroes, where billionaires like Bezos are generous benefactors, where the US was a shining city on a hill, and would be still if not for Trump. Anyway. I just want to send them this piece instead of yelling at them.
sorry you're going through that too man. i think a lot of us are. ok i'll make it open for now so people can send it around.
A thought experiment...an all white neighborhood, not necessarily rich, was cut off by some natural disaster or some other failure, no water, no food, and they went into a local closed grocery store to get food, etc.....looting?
take care of yourself my dude, we love you 💖
As always, thank you for putting words to things and distilling the various threads on twitter into a coherent narrative of the weekend's events. This is a minor takeaway, but I have also been a complete shithead to everyone in my life the past few days, even though I know they are just as frustrated and scared and furious and broken-down and hopeless as I am. It's the impotence. There is so much to feel and so fucking little to do. Love to know why my instinct is always to push away instead of to ask for help. Carry on, brother.